Hi everyone, I won't beat around the bush, I need some emotional support. I am in the middle of a horrible flare up, I am overstimulated, sleep deprived and emotionally drained. Last week, my partner's dad passed away. That means I had to suddenly take a flight and travel to another country. And that was just the begining. Within the last 4 days I had taken a flight, carried my luggage (no wheels, just a heavy bag), meet my partner's family, be of emotional support, ride a car for another 11 hours, go to a second country where I don't speak my language, meet more people, eat anything at any random time... I am literally destroyed. I have had to resort to my old not-helpful habits in order to "function", I have brought some props with me to do some exercise but I have barely had a minute to myself. Even when I try to meditate, be it in a car, room, or bench in the street... someone will come and talk to me. My body is screaming, it hurts, moving hurts, my brain is foggy, and I am masking really hard (like I used to) because my partner needs me. I don't know for how long I can keep going though. I feel I am about to literally break, physically and emotionally. I know there is not much I can do, apart from posting this in a place where someone may understand what I am going through, so... here I am. Thanks for taking the time for reading this.
Posted by Geeky Al at 2023-05-05 20:26:06 UTC